Aug. 3, 2006
Per Matt’s suggestion, I am going to try and blog daily to track my emotions/mood swings and such. As of rightnow, 10:08am, I am feeling kind of shitty. We had a fight last night, and I’ll admit it…he was/is right. I am completely in the wrong.
It really set off my stomach last night…(oh, did I forget to mention that I just found out I have Crohn’s Disease) and that all-too familair gurgly feeling has conitued on through to today. I am tired, and feel like I could cry if anyone looks at me funny. I just want to go home go go back to bed. I think the only thing keeping me here is my not wanting to look like a bad employee and not to mention having to use my precious comp time. With all these doctor’s appt.s and the like, I really have to keep track of my comings and goings.
Just feeling pretty blah today. Work is boring the snot of me, I am feeling very unfufilled and unsupported. It’s so frustrating to have worked me ass off to get a degree in nonprofit admin/management and work towards a career/job in grant writing…thinking this was going to be a great niche for me…and finding out (that at least at this agency) I am bored out of my skull. It doesn’t help that I haven’t heard back on a single one of the proposals I have written. No checks, no rejections either, but no feed back what so ever from the funders.
One semi-good thing htat happened to day was Dr. Wallace called me (choir dir. @ LU) and asked me to help him with the planning and execution of a midwest region convention for Vasity Vocals/Intercollegiate A Cappella Assoc. So we shall see if that comes to be or not.
On the phone right now w/ USAA & St. John’s trying to work out the billing errors from my car accident. We’ve been going round and round. Thankfully my claims rep @ USAA is great, and I’m sure she will get this settled at some point. Well there appears to be a snafu w/ my claim. The hospital is saying they don’t have a contract w/ the company that USAA says they have a contract with that entitles them to take a PPO reduction…hmmm. Christina is trying to get to the bottom of it.
Back to “work”….
